The lie and Descartes

It’s been over 20 years, and I still remember it as if it was yesterday …
I was flying from Granada to Barcelona; watching the soothing sight of an eternally reddish sky, and with eyes flooded with tears … Why? Why me? I do not deserve it…

I had been dating my partner for a few months; he came out of a separation and after living together for a few weeks, he told me that he needed time to think, to reflect; he did not want to start anything without being sure … Of course I said, no problem … I knew that he loved me and that he was as much in love with me as I was with him…

But before taking off, the news arrived. He had returned with his wife, he was living with her …
I did not understand anything … I had just talked to him … He loved me!
I closed my eyes and tried to relax a bit; suddenly the theory of DESCARTES came to my mind; I do not know why, but I remembered…

The story of the fisherman that when he threw the line to the river, if he looked carefully, he saw that when the line entered the water, it changed it´s angle … Why is this happening? As the day progressed, and the sun changed its position, the angle was changing …. Then he went into the water, caught the line and saw that the line did not change angle; it was the reflection of the sunlight that “deceived” him. From there he laid the foundations of his theory: The senses have deceived me once, and can deceive me again. The reason has shown me the truth. I will not trust the senses again and I will trust the reason…

At that same moment I decided that, for much it would cost me, I would not return with him.
The same goes for human relationships, if a person lies to you, looking you in the face, with an imperturbable security and tranquility, and you discover it, you better forget about it; as much as you think they will not do it again, you will always have that bit of doubt that will embitter your existence until the end of your days. You can not justify lying, ever.

After a few days he called me, explaining why he had lied to me, that his ex was threatening severe depression and her mother-in-law had begged her to return with her for a while … To which I replied:

• If you had told me the truth I would have understood it; You have lied to me, to the face, you have made me suffer, I do not deserve this, I can not trust you again (At that time I thought they were the most difficult words I would pronounce in my life).

Thank you for lying to me, from my heart, my life is much better now.